Wednesday, May 09, 2007

God Answers Prayer

So it's been a few weeks since my last post and just wanted to say than you to anyone who prayed for our building. That meeting (the one mentioned in my last post) was kinda funny. So the people that own the building wanted a LOT of money for it (they have since come down with the asking price and we're hoping they will come down further). We said 'not for that price, but hey, in the meantime can we rent it from you?' they (eventually) said yes and WE MOVED IN this monday just gone. We have the whole building for PENNIES a month and we have it 24/7 which is awesome. God has really answered are prayers and we are praying that we will be able to buy the building in autumn. Please pray for this.

On a more personal note, God has really REALLY been working on me recently. Man has it been painful. I have been reminded of both my shortcomings and my calling all at once and they pull me in opposite directions. When I think that I'm not doing a great job, or some aspect of my character is called to account by God, it makes me feel like I shouldn't be doing this, like I should cut and run. Added to that a mild pull back to medicine - because at least there I felt useful/skilled - and it really makes me question this "calling" to ministry.

That being said, the more I stick around here and the more I learn, the more sure I am that I am in the right place. I have found, in the people of re:hope, both friendship, leadership and encouragement that all push me onto grasping hold of this calling and accepting that, even though there is LOTS of room for improvement, it IS what I am called to.


So I have felt torn apart by all this and continue to work on listening to God. Someone said recently that when I can accept this as a CALLING and not just something I'm doing, then it becomes more about obedience in following that anything else, and that I can handle.

Julie continues to be amazing and support her. The more we walk together the more I utterly love her. I thank God for her a LOT.

That's all for now, thanks for reading.